Save me from me…Healing our violence, (part 4)

 

morse_IMG_927312016Freedom from my own inner violence is a pre-requirement to living in tune with my creator. I continually must confess with all my heart, that I don’t know how to live the way Jesus invites me to. It breaks my heart, that after so many years, I still feel like a rookie. Like a scared kid at his first day in high school I’m still learning what it means to be transformed so I can live this new and wonderful life.

 

Save me from me… A confessional by Mike Morse

Save me from me…

Defend yells my ego…it’s fragile and scared,

Embody our energy scream the harsh voices that bounce like tigers in my mind,

Strike the bully, the entitled, and the ignorantly arrogant with bloodstained fists of rage… but wait, no!

 

Save me from me…

I must cast out this breakable infidel.

I resist this tension,

I am the infidel, the compassionate and I pregnant with these shits.

 

Save me from me…

Radical love, and retribution have no place in each other and they fight like angry parents my home.

Trust goodness?

I fall short on my knees for pleading compassion to come in.

 

Save me from me…

I will fight this battle with grace, acceptance and not project all the violence that is within me,

Surrender over and over and over, Im going to hurl from this.

This reservoir has cracked at the levies and is spilling all its fermenting floods,

The river is grace cascades into the draining space and if so blessed my foundations will made new to hold this fresh gift of life.

Healing our Violence, (part 3) The fear of God is the fear of our false image of God

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The fear of God is the fear of our false image of God

What do the writers of antiquity mean when they speak of, “the fear of God” and should we integrate this into our worldview? I believe the poets and authors of the Jewish scriptures where truly afraid that the creator wasn’t completely benevolent or good. They dictated and prescribed the need to appease their God with animal blood sacrifice, while neighboring tribes prescribed human and child sacrifices. They hoped these actions would show the deity that they where earnest in their devotion and would win the favor. However along comes the advent of Jesus, he made big claims that a time was upon humanity when we would only need to worship and spirit and truth.

Jesus said all spaces and people where deemed sacred and that it was time for a new understanding of God. During a time where sacrifice and fear was apart of every day religious life Jesus proclaims good news. He further went on to affirm that we could hope that the creator is a caring good father alleviating from needing to strive to appease this being. Crazy making…don’t be afraid, be afraid, and don’t be afraid!!!…Jesus speaks on fearing God and man in Mathew chapter 10. How are we to fear the great God of love? This is nonsense from a literal standpoint, but for a teacher who wants us to live in the tension of the question, it makes perfect sense. He wants us to know that we are safe in our loving creators vision, that as his student John says, “Perfect love cast out all fear.”  However Jesus then tells us how to avoid the fear of man, it’s fearing a good God. So in light of this good news, what do we do with the concept, “the fear of God?” What kind of space and poster is Jesus inviting us into?

We must admit we have incorrect God images corporately and personally. The fear of God is to enter the cloud of unknowing, with a grounded faith that our creator is who Jesus said he is like. The fear of God is the fear of our false image of God. We all miss identify who God is. If God were fully knowable he would not be God. Lets embrace some mystery and with humility and healthy fear, fall into love, ironically a love that cast out all fear. Come to the camp of mystery and get off the tracks of literalism. Literalism will kill your soul and you wont have a mind or a soul worth saving if we don’t become flexible make room for a mysterious, dynamic and living God.

“Healing our violence,” part 2

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“Love God, Love others” a paraphrase from Jesus

People that desire to encounter their creator have been writing bibles, religious text, angry retributive rants and holy books for thousands of years. These writings are filled with their hopes, projections, faith and experiences that will be judged as sacred or profane by us who read their “prophetic utterances.” Gods of their own constructed imaginations and projections have long enslaved and repressed human thought though history. The religious gatekeepers then create a structure to control the masses in the name of these imagined gods. These imagined deities have been violent, temperamental, jealous, petty and hell bent on embodying the worst of humanity. The ancient Hebrews have been praised as the first group of people to largely adopt monotheism. Like all religions, they where on to some progressive stuff for their day, however they too adopted an image source that was still full of violence. Today many modern Christians have adopted this god image and try to literally live under his violent yoke. I’m so happy to say, this is not the revelation Jesus taught.

 

The Hebrew Scriptures, “an affair with violence,” contrasted with Jesus and his teaching on enemy love.

 

My hope is this; as we daily weigh all scriptures that we would do so by setting a higher standard of love and non-violence that Jesus modeled and taught to his followers. We should engage these ancient and modern text with conscience, intention, reason, and with in the spirit of God. As we sift through the ancient and contemporary voices that ponder the divine, let’s not promote those that embody regressive, violent and fearful faith. It’s up to us to judge the past and those in the future will judge us by the good or terror we enact based upon our convictions and faith. Be on the side of love, openness, expansion and goodness for heavens sake. Choose you will, but what and how you affirm your faith will be up to you. Just because we say something enough times, or load enough, or over many centuries doesn’t make it true or good. I can say, “God said,” all I like and after all, God did not say it, I did. Did your faith start with an ancient warlord, a politician, a desert sage, or a failed salesman? You should evaluate their teachings critically, with love and reason for the peace and future of our race and planet. If there is a God and he is violent, then he and most of our religious institutions embodied his violence. However if God is loving, full of compassion, patience and abhors violence, woe, to the human who did violence in his name! Woe to us if we promote hate in his name! Woe to you if our creator is forgiving and you practice hostility, exclusion and judgment! Woe be unto us! For if our creator is love and we do not embody love, what space will there be for us with this deity?

 

 

I just finished an excellent book called, “Disarming Scripture,” by Derek Flood. I am sick of oppression, alienation, judgment, and violence done in the name of Jesus and his father. I’m also frustrated by the violence, confusion, and fear in my own heart. Derek’s book offers a detailed neo-orthodoxy and hermeneutic for evaluating scripture that frees people to love and act radically in following of Jesus. If you want to embody Jesus and don’t wish to model your life after what most churches tell you, then this means you may want to also read this book. It gives a lot of answers to my above statements in great detail. Jesus taught enemy love, and I like so many who grew up in the church, had hardly a clue what this meant. I was taught America was a Christian nation, but I early on noticed that our nation acted nothing like Jesus or his teachings. A literalist orthodox reading of scripture promotes, genocide, violence, sexism, child abuse, oppression, nationalism, racism and other isms that to not belong to Jesus or his teachings. Its time we learn how to follow Jesus, our conscience, with in what we now know about science, phycology, morality and the way of love. Both Mohammad and Moses embraced violence and bloodshed as the way forward. The prophets and poets of the Hebrews reveled in the blood of their enemies and spoke as if God but did so in horrible violent terms. These men may have been progressive for their day, but they knew nothing of the way of Jesus, or his teachings. If you want to follow Jesus but feel leery of his followers, this is great. Your conscience is working and you may be well adapted for the way of Jesus. Jesus came to save us not from God, but from ourselves. God is love, he is our creator and Jesus understood this. We are invited into a new era of enemy love, no longer mirroring violence with violence, no longer projecting our worst human qualities onto our creator. There is much we don’t know about God that will in this life remain a mystery. However, if we put our hope in Jesus, we can trust that God is good and that we can follow a new life-giving path and way of understanding and encountering our creator.